♥~♥such fragile moments we share♥~♥

It has been a crazy day. I have been out running around with mom and we got a chance to go and see Mandy (my step sister) and have coffee with her. I haven’t seen her since the wedding and as usual she was looking great. We even had some time to do some shopping, which was great therapy for mom. I do hope that since Mandy has moved closer that I will be getting to see her more often. I know that there is an 11-year difference between her and I but she is just way too mature for her age. She is going to school and is about to get her first apartment this summer. I am so excited for her. I remember getting my first place, it was a hole…but it was home to me!

Mom and Ian have decided to go their separate ways. We knew it was coming but I guess I just never thought how hard it would be. The sad part is that I think there is so much more to the story than he is willing to admit, so much that I couldn’t even look at him in the eyes the other night. He is such a different person than he was 2 years ago, and I think a lot of the changes had to do with the people he has been hanging out with since he moved up North. Mom is hanging in strong as she always does, but I know that she is hurting pretty bad. I guess the worst part is that I can’t make her stop hurting. Now I know what she felt like when I was heartbroken.

You're in the home stretch. Finally! The third trimester typically starts at week 29 and lasts until week 40 and sometimes even beyond. (Don't worry -- 42 weeks is the maximum! After that, a woman usually is induced to give birth.) Well I don’t know if I want him in me that long, I mean it’s much quieter with him in there but 40 weeks is long enough! Most women gain an average of 11 pounds/ 5 kilograms during this trimester. So I will probably gain 22 or more, damn that mint chocolate chip ice cream! By this week, your baby weighs nearly 2.3 pounds/ a little over 1 kilograms and may measure 14.8 inches/ 38 centimetres from top to toe. And he will feel like about 30lbs!

His fat layers are forming and his fingernails appear. My fat layers are forming too and my fingernails are growing rapidly but are very brittle. You may notice about now, that your baby is much more active when you are having a bath or shower. Yes, he loves the sound of water! He's responding to the light and noise by moving around inside you. Well it doesn’t take light and noise to make this one move. While you're enjoying the warm water you may also notice that your breasts may begin to leak a little. What?! Oh great not only do I have to worry about the fact that I might pee my pants a little when I sneeze but now my boobs might start leaking?! They are already producing colostrum, the concentrated early milk that is the perfect feed for your newborn. Yummy! As with many aspects of pregnancy, not all women have leaking breasts before their baby is born — so don't worry if it hasn't happened to you — on the plus side you won't need to wear breast pads yet. Lets save all the pad wearing for after that baby is born! Ha ha ha!

Today was a great day I got my hair cut (thanx to Amanda mine) and this time I like it much better. Whatcha think??

 We also spent 4 more hours trying to come up with name for our kids. Man my head hurts. There must be an easier way!!

I got some shopping done yesterday for Chuck and I am really proud of myself for spending such a little amount. I have found a local club on Facebook (of all places) that I have joined for mom’s that allows people to sell and buy various different items at reasonable rates. It’s basically like an online garage sale for mom’s that sells anything from maternity clothes to strollers and car seats. I was lucky enough to pick up a box of outfits for Chuck for $44 and a stroller/car seat for $100. Most of the clothes are pretty much brand-new and the stroller and car seat although a few years old are in great shape. I don’t see a point in spending a bunch of money on things that you aren’t even sure you will use or your child might not even like or grow out of in a week or two. It also helps with the fact that right now we are down to one income until my sick leave claim passes through.

So I went to the Dr’s today and that was an experience all of it’s own. Man were people bored this winter cause there was three pregnant ladies in the waiting room, one coming out of the room when I got there and another waiting when I was done. Everything is pretty much normal although I measure about 31 weeks and I am only 28 tomorrow, but it’s been that way all along. He is going to be HUGE! He kept moving around during the check up and made it hard for the nurse to find his heartbeat, he plays hide and go seek with her every time. I was worried that I may have lost some weight since I was there three weeks ago due to the stress with work and all but it turns out that I have gained 4lbs. Ha ha ha…shows what I know!!

The girl that was in the waiting room when I can out of my apt overheard me say that I had gained 19lbs and she looked horrified when she saw me. She couldn’t have been more than 16 (if that) and I heard her say that she was 14-weeks. Her boyfriend couldn’t stop staring at my tummy and kept looking from me to her. Yes buddy she will soon look like this too, maybe bigger as she did look like she weighed a bit to begin with. At that age I have no idea what is in store for them, I don’t know if they even have anyone to support them as they venture through pregnancy. I hope that they do. I would have been so scared at that age, and yet they seemed to be so happy. I mean hello, I am scared at the age of 30!! I only hope that they stick together and support one another and take good care of that child. I probably shouldn’t have but I mentioned to them that life was going to be hard with all the changes that lie ahead, but they seemed to already have heard that before.

She asked if I knew what it was and I said a boy. I got the impression that she wanted a girl but he a boy. Before she could ask if we had a name picked out I mentioned that we could not decide on a name, but that we needed to soon, as I was due in July. She seemed shocked. She thought I was due any day. For some reason I didn't feel insulted this time, instead I laughed and informed her that there was a chance that she might possibly get this big too. She is due on Halloween; I laughed and mentioned how funny that was cause Chuck was conceived on Halloween we figure. I also told her that picking out the name might actually be harder than having the baby, I guess I was wrong cause they already had two very nice names picked out for each sex. I guess it’s easier when you have more of a creative mind that has not been warped by society. Man if I had kids in high school I can only imagine how silly their names might have been!! Then realizing what I had said aabout picking names being harder than giving birth I quickly retracted my statement…it’s true I fear nothing more in life than giving birth!

Yesterday was certainly an eye opener to what I have ahead of me. Kenny and Shawn we laying the floor at mom’s and since Amanda (brothers) had to work I decided to help mom watch the three kids. I am so sore today from chasing the two little ones (Payton [2] and Logan [1]) all over the place. They seem to have this endless energy about them that right now I could only dream of. Tori [7] just didn’t seem to want to listen to anyone and kept telling me how bored she was. I guess with a four-year age gap between her and then next one it might make for a boring day for her. With this I have decided that I do not want too large of an age gap between the kids. That is if we decide to have more than one! I can’t seem to figure out how mothers with a child make it through the ups and downs of energy while pregnant, and still care for their other children. I know it has been done for years, but the question is how? At least right now if I need a nap for the most part I can take it!

Speaking of napping, my plans for this morning were to sleep in.  After Kenny left for work I found it very hard to get back to sleep and was really bored of all the infomercials that seem to take up the early morning hours of the TV schedule. The phone rang not much after I gave up and Amanda (mine) and I spent many hours trying to figure out names for our unborn children. Yes I said hours!! Right now I have a bit of advantage cause I know the sex, but then again she picks out the most perfect names. Guess you get pretty good by the fourth one eh?! I have found a few cool places that actually help you pick names but they never seem to be as original as I want them to be. In the end how original is any name? Although during our talk Amanda put together two of the names Kenny likes to form Jaxton, a combo of Paxton and Jack. I really like it and it sounds better each time I say it. As many people have told me I should also have a few more names picked out just incase Chuck doesn’t look like the name we have picked out for him. I also like the name Orion, which I think might be ok as a middle name.  

 So with 86 days left to go what do you think of Jaxton Orion Archer??