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May 21

31 weeks...

Don't panic if you feel your baby moving less frequently now. I honestly don’t think I would panic, in fact I might actually be a little more comfortable. He's got less room to move in your uterus and can't do the back-flips and somersaults you're both used to. Which is good, this foot in the rib cage after I eat really sucks!! As long as you can feel him squirming from time to time, he's fine. Oh I figured as much. By this stage, most babies have turned head down into the "cephalic" position ready for birth. Mine not so much, he is on an angle, but apparently making his way there according to the Dr. A few take a little longer and a few remain stubbornly upright in the "breech" position. Yes, knowing my luck that will be me. He will probably turn himself back around the wrong way. If your baby is breech, there's still time for her to turn. Maybe I could make him turn by poking at him?
 
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Your baby's arms, legs and body continue to fill out -- and they are finally proportional in size to her head. Good no big head baby! He weighs about 3.3 pounds/1.5 kilograms and looks more like a newborn. Whoot whoot!! He measures about 16 inches/ 41 centimetres from crown to toe. Not mine, I swear he is 30lbs and 30”. Your baby's organs are continuing to mature and he is passing water from her bladder: good practice for the urinating she'll do after she's born. Still my baby is a pee drinker! Soon you can wonder what your baby is wishing for -- brain scans have shown that fetuses have periods of dream sleep around month eight. Hopefully he is dreaming about becoming a motorcycle or a car racer! You've probably gained three to four pounds / 1.3 to 1.8 kilograms this month. Actually no, the Dr told me that in the last 3 weeks I have gained nothing. Weird cause I eat ALL the time now. Gaining one-pound/450 grams a week is quite normal during the last trimester as your baby has a final growth spurt before birth. Guess we will see how normal I am…cause we all know that is questionable on a good day?!
May 20

Car shopping...

Life got a little crazy last week as you could see with my last blog. I thought that I would wait until I had some time to myself to sit down and catch up on what has been going on. I would have done that sooner but Kenny has had quite a few days off and it has just been so great the two of us being able to do nothing together if we want too.

 

Mom I am sure is still good, as she has called once since we left her up north (on Sunday) and spoke with my brother. She said that she was having a great time with her long weekend guests and that she as feeling good except for some stiffness. I imagine by now her bruises are a wonderful blackish-purple colour. She said that she is looking forward to a few days just to herself up there. Sometimes I wish that she had a phone up there just so she could let us know she was ok without having to drive around the lake. I know that wrecks the fact that you are away from the world and unavailable to its demands, something that the cottage has always provided for me was silence from the constant ringing of my cell phone. In fact I lose my service way before most people, about an hour and a half before I get there my phone becomes silent.

 

A scary thing when I think about last Tuesday is that there was no cell service where my mother wrecked her car. After a construction worker who happened to be working down the road notified the police, it took them 40 minutes just to get to the scene. He said that he heard most of the crash but watched the car land and has no idea how my mother is alive. My mother was also lucky enough to have a volunteer firefighter and a traveling registered nurse stop at the scene not more than 5 minutes after the fact. The firefighter helped her out of the car safely and the nurse had all of her stuff with her so she made sure moms vitals were good. What I wouldn’t do to be able to thank these people for what they did!! Not to mention how she ended up in a little 2-foot ditch to slide into and not the huge 30-foot ravines that run along most of the roads up there I will never know. Really when you think about it what are the chances of it all turning out so perfectly?

 So she now wants another car same as the one she had, which is funny cause in the beginning she didn’t care for it so much. I guess when it holds up so well when you roll a few times you opinion of it changes and you start to like it more. So later this week I will be out and about doing come car shopping, looking to see if I can find her a replacement. Her only request is that it not be the same colour! As for today I am going to finish cleaning the house before my Dr appointment. This is the one that I was supposed to have last Tuesday but called and cancelled cause I headed up north to make sure mom was ok. I imagine that I will get my referral to my OB today and then someone new can fondle my body for the next few weeks. I have already started drinking my water so I can be sure to pee in the cup for them. Now if I can only do it this time without peeing on my hand!! Ha ha ha!!

May 16

Mom's off road adventure...

So I did disappear for a few days and I am happy to report nothing was wrong with Chuck and I, we are fine. I just wanted to let you know that we are ok. However my mother was in a bit of an accident. She is ok, thank goodness. All I can say is that if you own a Vibe or Matrix you have a hell of a good car when it comes to rolling it a few times.

 

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Yes and she basically walked away from this very sore and with some cuts and bruises.

 

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Someone or thing was watching over her...as you can see!

 

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I will have more later when I get things under control here! 

May 12

Mothers Day....

Yesterday was a weird sort of day for me emotionally. Everyone kept wishing me a happy mothers day. It felt weird. Like I was being praised for a job that I have not felt that I have started yet. Like I had lied to join a club that I should not belong too. I understand that mothers are many different people, but yet I do not feel as though I am one at this point.

 

We went out and made my mom breakfast, all of us kids, and grandkids. I’m pretty sure that we made enough food for about 10 more people than we had there, but it was great to spend the time together. I got her a Margarita set so that she could sit out on her patio and relax with her friends. Which is what she needs right now. She surprised me with an outfit for Chuck and a scrapbook and that she had made for me in the first few years of my life. I wanted to cry but there was something just so calming about my mother giving me that book, like she was telling me that everything was going to be ok.

 

We then had supper with Jo and brought over her huge crock-pot that she has been longing for. She said that she wanted a big one so we got her a 18-liter. I don’t think they get much bigger. I decided that I had cooked enough for the day and recommended to Kenny that we should think about possibly ordered out some Chinese. It was an hour and a half wait but it was delish! It’s funny that I don’t get heartburn from Chinese; in fact I think that Chuck really likes it. Weird eh?

 

I was talking to a friend about how I felt about yesterday while writing this entry. She is the mother of a child who lived for only a few days, and she asked me if I thought of her as a mother. Of course she was a mother in my eyes and will always me the mother to that precious angel. I see the point that she was trying to make.
 
As she (and even my husband tried to point out to me several times) I really should have looked at yesterday a lot differently. I have been a mother for a few months now, making sure that Chuck is safe and getting everything he needs. I guess I should have known better. I mean after all I usually give flowers to my aunt Lynne for Mother's Day and she has no children, but she did help raise us. You know what I had a good Mother's Day...better than I ever knew!!
May 10

Thinking hard...

I feel a little better today. I at least got out of the house and took Kenny lunch and got some sunshine and fresh air. I even aired out the house as I cleaned this morning. It is such a fresh smell; Spring that is. I have been racking my brain most of the day trying to figure out what to get my mom tomorrow for Mother’s Day. I normally would have a present by now but life has been a little crazy for her and each time I think of something it just doesn’t seem to be enough. I would like nothing more than to be able to make her happy again. I know only time will do that right now. She is such a strong and brave lady and I know that she will get through this and become an even stronger lady. I mean she is why I am who I am; she is why I am as strong as I am. What do you get for the person that has given you life and made yours so perfect when theirs is falling apart?
May 09

Friday Feast...

Appetizer

When someone smiles at you, do you smile back?

 

Well as most of you here know I most certainly try to give them, cause I mean they are free…and contagious! Ha ha ha!!

 

Soup

Describe the flooring in your home.  Do you have carpet, hardwood, vinyl, a mix?

 

I have a mix. Most of the rooms are hardwood and I love that, I mean L-O-V-E it is so easy to keep the cat hair cleaned up and with 3 cats you need all the help you can get. The hallway and the computer area have carpet, which I was supposed to clean today but haven’t cause Kenny has given me his cold. The basement has cement in the laundry room and probably some sort of asbestos tile in the TV room from the 1970’s.

 

Salad

Write a sentence with only 5 words, but all of the words have to start with the first letter of your first name.

 

Aimee ate all active animals. (kind of weird eh? nothing new though really I mean I pretty much eat anything at this point)

 

Main Course

Do you know anyone whose life has been touched by adoption?

 

My whole families to be honest with you. I am still looking for my sister who at this point I guess doesn't want to be found. Maybe someday she will want to get to know us. I guess all I can do for right now is wait.

 

Dessert

Name 2 blue things.

 

Even though the sky is blue so is my mood...damn that Kenny and his germs!

May 08

On the go...

It has been a crazy day. I have been out running around with mom and we got a chance to go and see Mandy (my step sister) and have coffee with her. I haven’t seen her since the wedding and as usual she was looking great. We even had some time to do some shopping, which was great therapy for mom. I do hope that since Mandy has moved closer that I will be getting to see her more often. I know that there is an 11-year difference between her and I but she is just way too mature for her age. She is going to school and is about to get her first apartment this summer. I am so excited for her. I remember getting my first place, it was a hole…but it was home to me!

 

Mom and Ian have decided to go their separate ways. We knew it was coming but I guess I just never thought how hard it would be. The sad part is that I think there is so much more to the story than he is willing to admit, so much that I couldn’t even look at him in the eyes the other night. He is such a different person than he was 2 years ago, and I think a lot of the changes had to do with the people he has been hanging out with since he moved up North. Mom is hanging in strong as she always does, but I know that she is hurting pretty bad. I guess the worst part is that I can’t make her stop hurting. Now I know what she felt like when I was heartbroken.

May 07

29 weeks...

Your baby's head is getting bigger and his brain is developing billions of neurons (important for later learning) at an amazing rate. Ok can we keep the baby’s head growth to a minimum; I mean we all know where that baby has to come out of right! Nearly all babies react to sound by 30 weeks. What do you mean 30 weeks; we have been listening to music for weeks and reacting. He loves Dallas Green too!! His nutritional needs are growing too. Tell me about it, I think I am on a see-food diet!! To meet his body's demands, you'll need plenty of protein, vitamin C, folic acid and iron. I think I am getting enough, in fact I may have made a new discovery about Folic Acid, but I will get back to you when the experiment is complete. His bones in particular are soaking up lots of calcium right now, (about 200 milligrams is deposited in your baby's skeleton every day) so drink your milk (or if you don't like the taste, try calcium-enriched orange juice). I know I am getting enough milk, it’s one of my favorites cause it means I can have Instant Breakfast. Your baby now weighs around 2.5 pounds / 1.1 kilograms and measures about 15 inches / 38 centimetres from head to toe. Ha ha ha, I can almost believe this cause I haven’t felt as heavy as of late, in fact I have had a string of dys were I have been feeling rather light. Then again I haven't really been trying to fit into much other than baggy sweats. In boys, testicles descend from near the kidneys through the groin en route to the scrotum. Noice! My kid has balls!!
 
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May 06

Follow the leader...

Yes I can admit that I have become very lazy. Although I don’t seem to get a lot accomplished I have a very clean house! When I am bored I just grab some sort of cleaner and clean something. Yesterday I cleaned out the kitchen, junk drawer and all. I even did a bit of the bathroom.
 
In the afternoon I helped out a friend that runs a daycare and looked after three four year olds and a three year old, yes you read that right four kids. I don’t know how she does it daily cause she is due within the next few weeks. It was just for a few hours and they basically kept each other entertained so it’s not really like it was hard. The fact remains that they have so much energy and just watching then run around makes me tired. They were all really polite but when they all wanted to tell me something they deemed really important all at once I didn’t know where to start. They were all girls so it was funny to see how they played together. It was a rough few moments when they all wanted to be the queen, expect for when one thought that it would be better to be a princess. Then they all decided that being a princess was much better. It’s great to see such different personalities in kids. It really makes me wonder what Chuck is going to be like.
 
I am having a lot of problems getting around to peoples sites. Not too sure if it's my computer or MSN, but don't worry I will keep trying.
May 05

Super nesting...

What a crazy weekend, it just was so long and yet it went by so fast especially Sunday. It sucks that it’s the only day that Kenny and I get together, and it’s also the busiest day of the week for us sometimes. I wish that he could be off on sick leave with me and we could get things ready for the baby together. Then again I am sure that it is a good thing that we aren't together 24/7. Instead I think I will start the “super nesting” myself. I refer to it as super nesting cause I having OCD feel that I nest on a regular basis, or 5S as I refer to it. I have so much to get done that it all seems overwhelming even though it really isn’t necessary and I really don’t know where to start. I think for now I will start in the kitchen and work my way eventually to the nursery, maybe do one room a day. If I leave the nursery until last then I can get more input into what Kenny thinks we should do. I would like to say that I am going to get started right away but honestly I have done the dishes an am airing out the house as I type. I think that it might just be time for a nap. I can’t seem to sleep in anymore, but I can always go back to sleep after breakfast and a bit of cleaning. Weird eh?
May 01

Ah crap!

It is days like today that make this “sick leave” so worth it. I spent the afternoon with Amanda (brothers) and while I was out there I got the biggest laugh. Amanda had decided that her birthday present might have arrived at the post office and that she would run down while Payton and Logan were still napping to pick it up. Since I was there and the kids were still asleep nothing could go wrong right?
 
Wrong!
 
I thought I smelt poop.
 
I was even sure for a second that I did.
 
I brushed it off as my pregnancy nose playing tricks on me. 
 
I have no idea when Payton got out of bed or why she decided that she was going to poop on the potty but she did. She also decided that she was going to wipe herself down with the dishtowel she got from the kitchen that she figured she would moisten by dunking in the toilet. This pooping on the potty is a great thing since getting her there has been a mission. I am even impressed that she was smart enough made her own wet-wipe. She had poop everywhere, even in her hair. I couldn’t help but laugh. I mean really this is what I have to look forward too.
 
If only I brought my camera, do you think she would hate me in 20 years when I showed her and her friends?
April 30

28 weeks...

You're in the home stretch. Finally! The third trimester typically starts at week 29 and lasts until week 40 and sometimes even beyond. (Don't worry -- 42 weeks is the maximum! After that, a woman usually is induced to give birth.) Well I don’t know if I want him in me that long, I mean it’s much quieter with him in there but 40 weeks is long enough! Most women gain an average of 11 pounds/ 5 kilograms during this trimester. So I will probably gain 22 or more, damn that mint chocolate chip ice cream! By this week, your baby weighs nearly 2.3 pounds/ a little over 1 kilograms and may measure 14.8 inches/ 38 centimetres from top to toe. And he will feel like about 30lbs!

 

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His fat layers are forming and his fingernails appear. My fat layers are forming too and my fingernails are growing rapidly but are very brittle. You may notice about now, that your baby is much more active when you are having a bath or shower. Yes, he loves the sound of water! He's responding to the light and noise by moving around inside you. Well it doesn’t take light and noise to make this one move. While you're enjoying the warm water you may also notice that your breasts may begin to leak a little. What?! Oh great not only do I have to worry about the fact that I might pee my pants a little when I sneeze but now my boobs might start leaking?! They are already producing colostrum, the concentrated early milk that is the perfect feed for your newborn. Yummy! As with many aspects of pregnancy, not all women have leaking breasts before their baby is born — so don't worry if it hasn't happened to you — on the plus side you won't need to wear breast pads yet. Lets save all the pad wearing for after that baby is born! Ha ha ha!

 

Today was a great day I got my hair cut (thanx to Amanda mine) and this time I like it much better. Whatcha think??

 

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 We also spent 4 more hours trying to come up with name for our kids. Man my head hurts. There must be an easier way!!

April 29

Tummys everywhere...

I got some shopping done yesterday for Chuck and I am really proud of myself for spending such a little amount. I have found a local club on Facebook (of all places) that I have joined for mom’s that allows people to sell and buy various different items at reasonable rates. It’s basically like an online garage sale for mom’s that sells anything from maternity clothes to strollers and car seats. I was lucky enough to pick up a box of outfits for Chuck for $44 and a stroller/car seat for $100. Most of the clothes are pretty much brand-new and the stroller and car seat although a few years old are in great shape. I don’t see a point in spending a bunch of money on things that you aren’t even sure you will use or your child might not even like or grow out of in a week or two. It also helps with the fact that right now we are down to one income until my sick leave claim passes through.

 

So I went to the Dr’s today and that was an experience all of it’s own. Man were people bored this winter cause there was three pregnant ladies in the waiting room, one coming out of the room when I got there and another waiting when I was done. Everything is pretty much normal although I measure about 31 weeks and I am only 28 tomorrow, but it’s been that way all along. He is going to be HUGE! He kept moving around during the check up and made it hard for the nurse to find his heartbeat, he plays hide and go seek with her every time. I was worried that I may have lost some weight since I was there three weeks ago due to the stress with work and all but it turns out that I have gained 4lbs. Ha ha ha…shows what I know!!

 

The girl that was in the waiting room when I can out of my apt overheard me say that I had gained 19lbs and she looked horrified when she saw me. She couldn’t have been more than 16 (if that) and I heard her say that she was 14-weeks. Her boyfriend couldn’t stop staring at my tummy and kept looking from me to her. Yes buddy she will soon look like this too, maybe bigger as she did look like she weighed a bit to begin with. At that age I have no idea what is in store for them, I don’t know if they even have anyone to support them as they venture through pregnancy. I hope that they do. I would have been so scared at that age, and yet they seemed to be so happy. I mean hello, I am scared at the age of 30!! I only hope that they stick together and support one another and take good care of that child. I probably shouldn’t have but I mentioned to them that life was going to be hard with all the changes that lie ahead, but they seemed to already have heard that before.

 

She asked if I knew what it was and I said a boy. I got the impression that she wanted a girl but he a boy. Before she could ask if we had a name picked out I mentioned that we could not decide on a name, but that we needed to soon, as I was due in July. She seemed shocked. She thought I was due any day. For some reason I didn't feel insulted this time, instead I laughed and informed her that there was a chance that she might possibly get this big too. She is due on Halloween; I laughed and mentioned how funny that was cause Chuck was conceived on Halloween we figure. I also told her that picking out the name might actually be harder than having the baby, I guess I was wrong cause they already had two very nice names picked out for each sex. I guess it’s easier when you have more of a creative mind that has not been warped by society. Man if I had kids in high school I can only imagine how silly their names might have been!! Then realizing what I had said aabout picking names being harder than giving birth I quickly retracted my statement…it’s true I fear nothing more in life than giving birth!

April 28

All tuckered out...

Yesterday was certainly an eye opener to what I have ahead of me. Kenny and Shawn we laying the floor at mom’s and since Amanda (brothers) had to work I decided to help mom watch the three kids. I am so sore today from chasing the two little ones (Payton [2] and Logan [1]) all over the place. They seem to have this endless energy about them that right now I could only dream of. Tori [7] just didn’t seem to want to listen to anyone and kept telling me how bored she was. I guess with a four-year age gap between her and then next one it might make for a boring day for her. With this I have decided that I do not want too large of an age gap between the kids. That is if we decide to have more than one! I can’t seem to figure out how mothers with a child make it through the ups and downs of energy while pregnant, and still care for their other children. I know it has been done for years, but the question is how? At least right now if I need a nap for the most part I can take it!

 

Speaking of napping, my plans for this morning were to sleep in.  After Kenny left for work I found it very hard to get back to sleep and was really bored of all the infomercials that seem to take up the early morning hours of the TV schedule. The phone rang not much after I gave up and Amanda (mine) and I spent many hours trying to figure out names for our unborn children. Yes I said hours!! Right now I have a bit of advantage cause I know the sex, but then again she picks out the most perfect names. Guess you get pretty good by the fourth one eh?! I have found a few cool places that actually help you pick names but they never seem to be as original as I want them to be. In the end how original is any name? Although during our talk Amanda put together two of the names Kenny likes to form Jaxton, a combo of Paxton and Jack. I really like it and it sounds better each time I say it. As many people have told me I should also have a few more names picked out just incase Chuck doesn’t look like the name we have picked out for him. I also like the name Orion, which I think might be ok as a middle name.  

 So with 86 days left to go what do you think of Jaxton Orion Archer??

April 26

Dull and dreary day...

Some days it just takes so much to get going especially days like today where I am very stiff. I have not accomplished anything yet today other than brushing the cat again, which of course means more vacuuming in the near future. I don’t think the fact that today is a very dull and dreary day of rain is helping my mood very much. My plans for the day seem to be crumbling as the hour’s progress, which is making me very sad. I was supposed to be meeting up with a blog friend from NC that is here in Canada visiting. Her plans have changed and I am very sad that we no longer will have that chance to meet up. It is always heartbreaking when something that you have been planning for months falls through. I was looking so forward to putting a face and voice to the person, well other than pictures! I have decided that instead of trying to figure out what I am going to do today that I will just go with the flow and see where that gets me. I will start my day (well…afternoon) off with going to have lunch with Kenny. I figure that should help my mood and I could clean out the car. Cleaning always makes me feel better! I could always start to wash the walls and cupboards, as I have been staring at them trying to remember the last time I have washed them. I keep wondering if I start that now what will I do next week? I think that I kind of miss having a job today! Crazy I know!
April 25

Friday Feast...

Appetizer

Name something you would categorize as weird.

 

How can you brush a cat, get a hairball about the size of that 30lb cat and yet over the next few hours he still sheds all over the house after you have vacuumed. I mean seriously I have hairballs drifting though the house like dust balls in the desert!

 

Soup

What color was the last piece of food you ate?

 

Green and no it was not a booger, but of course a pickle. Hey what can I say I am pregnant!

 

Salad

On a scale of 1-10 with 10 being highest, how much do you enjoy being alone?

 

Right now 10, but that is only cause Chuck has his foot tucked into my rib cage. It’s not that I don’t like him being in there it’s just that it would be nice to feel like myself again!!

 

Main Course

Fill in the blank: I will _________ vote for ___________ in _______.

 

I will not vote for ice cream in bed anymore!

 

Dessert

Describe your sleeping habits.

 

Sleep? Not sure what that is. Just kidding. After Chuck comes I am sure I will not know what sleep is but for now I get a little but it’s interrupted by a lot of pee breaks as of late!

April 24

The smudge...

So not much is new. This whole I am not working thing doesn’t give me much to blog about. I have spent most of my days cleaning the house, feeding grandma lunch and visiting with friends and family. Which is good, really good when you think about the fact that I haven’t had a bad day since I left work…or was forced to leave…whatever!

 

The paperwork that it takes to get my sick leave coming in is making me pull my hair out, mostly due to the fact that the people at Service Canada seem to think that I am made of money and that they don’t have to be polite to people. Oh ya and they are stupid!! I looked up what I needed to bring in on the internet and I took it all down there. Everything that it told me too and I guess they are too stupid to make a website properly cause it turns out that I also needed more info like Kenny’s SIN. Why I don’t know? It’s me applying not him!! The snotty lady at the counter (who by the way should really dye her hair again cause her roots were 10 miles long) also told me that I should change my SIN number. So I went all the way home just to get my birth certificate and brought it back. It had a little smudge over my last name , it always has. It never stopped the guy who used it to give me my passport?! But it was not good enough for the b!tch behind the counter, so $35 later and a wait of 15 days (to get the new birth certificate) I then hear from a friend that I don’t even need to change my SIN card from my maiden name. The lady at Service Canada was just out helping the government get thier money grab…again...it figures...it is the government!!

April 23

27 weeks...

You're in the home stretch — two trimesters down, one more to go. Whoot whoot!! Then comes the scary part…actually giving birth!!
 
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Your baby now weighs nearly 2 pounds/ 875 grams and measures 14.5 inches/ 36.6 centimetres from heel to toe. Hard to believe that he only weighs 2lbs, have you seen me? Your baby is growing steadily as he prepares for delivery day. So that he can be huge so that he can rip me to shreds. He will gain weight rapidly over the next weeks and, as the size of your belly increases, you may feel more breathless and tired. Well good thing that work was nice enough to give me all this wonderful time off, as I can be sure to get a few naps in. Sweet dreams, little baby! Some experts believe that babies begin to dream by the 28th week. Well they have to be able to do something other than kick the crap out of the whoo-hoo bins that they live in. What do they dream about? Probably mint chocolate chip ice cream, which is why often I would like to eat some for breakfast?! No one knows for certain but the brain is active this week as well. No one knows anything for certain when it comes to babies! The characteristic grooves on the brain's surface start to appear and more brain tissue develops. Groovy! Your baby's acting more like a newborn now, too. Well I guess he needs the practice. He opens and closes his eyes, sleeps and wakes at regular intervals, and may suck a finger or thumb. His life sounds about as exciting as mine now. He may also be hiccupping a lot this week, whi